The little voice inside my head asked
Why are you crying
You should be used to disappointment by now
And i started to agree
But then i thought to myself
I keep crying
Because i m fragile
I break easy
And never go back together
The same
And i wish god would understand
I wish he would get
That the tears
They are not a way
To express my emotions
They are not falling out of spite
And some are not even from sadness
I cry because Im breaking
I am like the levees trying
To hold on against the
Wrath of katrina
Built but not
Expected to withstand
If one could see my heart
The losing battle scars
It bears
The rusty hinges attempting
To hold it in place
The thread of string
Passing through holes
Too big to fix
They’d marvel at the
Thought that i am
Only 17
and i try to be strong
I try not to show
My inner weakness
But i keep coming in second place
Coming up just that short
Its all in the law of physics
What goes up must go down
But im down more than i come up
I’ve become so accustomed to the ground
I curse rising up
Its slow and exciting
And you close your eyes
And for a second time is frozen
In that happy place
On top of the world untouchable
But you open your eyes
And your hanging on the edge
Seconds from crashing down
And just like that your back
On the ground
Trying to figure out
How the hell you fell
And willing to
Do anything to get back up
Suddenly you’re vulnerable
And facing withdrawl
The crack addict on
The corner begging to get high
Its a rollercoaster
And its name is life
Its the meanest one you’ll ever ride
Different every time
And Im just trying
To hang on
But Im slowly losing
The fight
Its over
And i know Im kinda late
And stating the obvious
But it’s just set in for me
That we were never a we
That nothing you ever said
Meant anything
You just chose to
Pass some of your free time with me
Now that Im out of your radar
I can sit back
And watch as you play
Your game
With women and there hearts
And i have to wonder
Who it is that broke yours
How much did you love her
Did she mean as much
To you
As you do to me
Do you still think of her often
And curse her for walking away from you
Id love to know what type of person
She was to make you
Act how you do
Building up
Only so you can tear down
Toying with people
Making them hurt
Just an inch of your
Heart broken day to day
Pain
